Soooo. It took me 45 agonizing minutes just to type this first sentence. (haha) I was arguing with myself on the thoughts that came to my mind with regards to this topic. I was self-debating whether I should or should not focus on my own depression. Besides, as what my brother said, “The best people to describe a feeling is to experience it first hand”. But, I wouldn’t feel this post with depressing thoughts of mine. Instead, I will tell you how I am slowly overcoming my own depression. I wouldn’t say this is applicable to everyone who’s depressed, but this is how it worked for me. So here it goes… ^_^
I’ve had depression since like I was grade 5 because I was wrongfully accused and betrayed by my friends and my teacher (okay, so let’s no go into details). So yes, I haven’t realized then that I was already experiencing depression along with insecurity, low self-esteem and self-pity. All I knew back then was that I no longer want to live another day in this world facing the same people. But since, the thought of death and dying scares me a lot (like a lot, lot), due to the idea of the existence of heaven and earth, I couldn’t kill myself. I have thoughts, yes. But I can’t perform such thoughts. Until now, these thoughts still come to mind especially when I’m idle (I’m slowly getting the hang out of it though).
It all starts with me recalling what happened way back then, then my lack of self-esteem starts attacking, then I start to self-pity (blaming my “ugliness” for being unwanted) then I start shoving people away from me (making me more lonely) then depressions creeps up. Then when I show up the next day (still having depression), there are two things I usually do, (a) I try my hardest not to show it, I laugh and smile as usual talking/communicating with the usual people (b) I show how depress I am by being socially awkward and withdrawing myself from the crowd (I want people to notice, I’m not okay)… I want them to save my from me ever endless depression. Depression is a cycle you must and can only stop yourself.
HOW DID I SAVE MY SELF FROM COMPLETELY DROWNING IN DEPRESSION?
Again, I am not saying this does apply to everyone out there whose depressed. But this is what I usually do when I’m already in the verge of drowning myself into it. Nope, I didn’t went to have a visit with a psychiatrist, these are purely impressed to me by God.
- USE YOUR BRAIN
Well, basically our brain is made to think so when you go idle, all sorts of thought comes into your mind. Hurts of the past, regrets, and all those negative stuff comes lurking inside your beautiful mind. Do something! Read books, watch movie, play sports, go job hunting, start a blog, think ideas for a business, whatever it takes just to keep your mind working. Just don’t stay idle. I’ve been doing this lately (though there are still times when I go idle but not for long now though) and it really improved my depression attacks. It may also work for you. You never know?
2. BE THANKFUL!
The main cause of depression are negative thoughts being fed by the enemy (Satan – yes he exists!). So why not, start thinking of the things you want to thank God for? I bet there would be so many. You don’t know what to thank God for? You might want to start with being thankful for another life He gave you today. Not everyone wakes up every single day (reality), but then He still allowed you to wake up today! Isn’t that something to thank Him for?
I suggest you keep a Thanksgiving Jar/Grateful Jar. Everyday you write just one thing you want to thank God for. You’ll be surprised that when you get used to writing thanksgiving, you’ll be able to write even more than one thanksgiving everyday. I just started mine, why don’t you start one yourself too! It sure helps!
3. LISTEN TO THE RIGHT SONGS
Who doesn’t like music? May it be rock, classic, pop, RnB, just whatever genre of music everyone’s got their own pick right? But we should all be mindful of the lyrics of the songs we’re listening to. Not all has positive effect on us. You might want to check out what the song means before you listen to it. When you’re depressed, it doesn’t mean you have to listen to an upbeat music. The tempo of the music doesn’t really matter, what matters is the message of the song you’re listening to. Because it’s what the brain processes and comprehends. So try listening to positive songs and not those bitter and sad songs. This works for me all the time. I listen to songs of Kari Jobe, Hillsongs, other inspirational artists. There are tons of them. You wouldn’t have a hard time looking for these kinds of songs
4. SURROUND YOURSELF WITH GOOD FRIENDS
I don’t know with you, but when I’m depressed, I usually shove away my friends. Some of them stay and comfort me, but most of them (sadly) goes away. You need to pick the right friends. Those who are ready to hear your depressing thoughts, and prays for you after. Those who don’t only stay when you’re happy but also stays when you have your depression episodes. I found mine. You should also find yours. These people will be there to pray for you and slap you with reality that you might have drifted away long time ago.
5. READ YOUR BIBLE AND PRAY
Okay, So this may sound so cliché but among the list. This is the most effective one. Since depression is mostly the work of the enemy, you should work with the enemy’s enemy – GOD. I have this one particular verse in the bible which always helps me out of my depression.
Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever
And when you start having depressing thoughts into your mind, this verse will remind you not to entertain those thoughts.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things.
Again, I won’t say that this is the only way out of your depression. But you might want to try? Basically you won’t lose anything if you try. You’re already in your rock bottom state (I know that feeling), save yourself from getting drowned down there. Just try. Who knows?
Thanks for dropping by! I hope I helped you!